Well. SOME progress.
I've gone back to free writing. I'm just enjoying writing out small scenes and not worrying too much about where I'm going plot wise. Trying to tap more into sensory detail and capture images or bits of dialogue.
There are 2 routines I want to establish. Daily yoga practice. And daily writing practice.
When I do a yoga stretch, I accept that my body is weak and stiff. I know I'm on a giant learning curve. I understand that I won't be able to stretch all the way into a pose. That I'll be wobbly and unbalanced. But I know if I just keep gently stretching, keep working at it, always pushing out, there'll be improvements.
I'm kind to myself when it comes to learning yoga.
But I'm hard and impatient when it comes to writing. I know that most of the work is in the revision. I know that a finished draft is only the first step in the process. That it's insane to expect flowing writing that is tight and clear in the first scribble. And I know that most ideas won't result in a finished story line.
So maybe when I write I should think of the writing as a series of yoga asanas. I need to remember I'm only a student and just keep stretching.